[ galaxy brain: y'all should die quickly so you can play with me
Kano is in the lounge, lying on the ground with his feet propped up on the seat of the couch, getting back to that same familiar feeling of having all the blood pooled in his head. ]
Why? You tried really hard, you know? I was watching you.
[ Oh ): He looks a lot guiltier when he sees that she's been crying. ]
There wasn't anything to find, anyways. You know, when people do bad things like this... they're not gonna leave a whole bunch of clues that fall neatly into place. There's not gonna be a clear path to who did it and how. This whole thing is stacked against you; it's unfair from the start.
... I know. [It would defeat the point if it were easy.] We failed horribly last week as well. I... I didn't want to lose anyone else again. Not like Pikachu-san. But now you're going to die. I volunteered and everyone said I was a child. Why weren't the same rules applied to you?
[ All these pcs are so sad but somebody "Pikachu-san" is the funniest thing I have ever heard ]
Isn't that 'cause they like you? People will bend the rules for those they like— and it's not a bad thing, either. You should protect the people you like.
[you have no idea how much it fucking kills me every time i have to write that in a tag i wish for death]
But that's— We oughtn't make exceptions! And there are people who like you, and want to protect you as well, so why...? [Protect all the teens equally, wtf!!] You deserved to have the rules bent in your favor, too.
We shouldn't make exceptions, but I deserve to have the rules bent in my favor too? Make up your mind.
[ He gets it, though, the unfairness of it all. If he were just a normal kid, polite and unassuming, if he didn't have to do everything that he did, how things could have been...
But the fact is, he is who he is, and he did what he did. ]
The rules never bend in my favor. Not once has luck been on my side, nor has fortune been kind. So this happening doesn't surprise me either. That's just how the world is: cruel and unfair. Kinda makes you mad, huh? All you can do is kick and fight at every turn, and live on in spite of it all.
[Sometimes, you are frustrated and contradict yourself. It's fine.]
... It's just... If one exception is to be made, shouldn't the same standards be applied across the board? I understand the position of those who thought your behavior was suspicious, but...
[His hair wasn't even? Long enough? God. She makes a small noise, finally moving to plop down on the floor near the barrier.]
... It shouldn't be that way. Cruel or unfair. I'm sorry, Kano-san. I left food for you with the leaders, but is there anything I may do for you tonight?
[ He still thinks hair is such a stupid piece of evidence. People have been walking around everywhere all these two weeks? hello?? Same goes for pocket checks and whatever, it doesn't make sense to him, he's never had to figure out a murder, just go through with it. ]
...In my room, if you can get Claude to let you in. There's this doll in one of the pods, with a red scarf. Can you give that to Alex?
I'll speak to Claude-san. I don't think he would refuse... Or, at least, I'm sure he would be willing to deliver it to Benedetto-san himself if we won't allow me inside.
He would probably read into it more than he should... probably... Anyways, you asked if you could do something for me, right? I don't want to impose on him.
...Thanks. I'm glad you can trust me enough not to question it too much.
[ This would have made things so much easier today? Knowing he's like this, and giving him a pass. Even if the situation is what it is, knowing that nobody can be given passes or the culprit will slip through their fingers. ]
What, do you think she's going to burn the doll to get it to me? I'm not coming back. This time, it's only me, so... You won't see me again after tomorrow.
I know. Wishes can go wrong, and they oughtn't be the only thing we rely on. But if there's even the slightest chance this will work, then I have to try.
[ Oh, million dollar question. He's not sure he can explain it in any way that does his reasons justice, and I sure cannot wrangle words together at 1:30am, so Kano just falls quiet for a moment, before speaking up. ]
...I was scared, maybe. Anxious.
[ Stressed to high hell??? Sometimes anxiety gets the better of you and you just shut off your brain and you have an unfortunately compulsive liar autopilot. ]
Whether I told the truth or a lie, nobody would be able to tell the difference. In that case, what did it matter, when nobody believes in me anyways?
He breathes a laugh, a shuddering breath. It'll be fine. His existence is that he's more of an enigma than a person— whatever happens tomorrow, nobody will have to feel bad that they killed him. They don't know who "he" is, after all, truth and lie mixed and muddied. Like this is fine. ]
It'll be fine. You just gotta pick yourself up and move on— hold your wish close and never forget about why you're fighting so hard. That all you can do, right, "Kasumi"?
Not "Kasumi." Yoshizawa. Kasumi... was my sister. [Unfortunately. Literally none of this is okay, but she starts to move to stand up.] Um... I'll come back to visit you before tomorrow. After I deliver the doll to Benedetto-san. Okay?
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week one, saturday.
But, yeah. Yoshizawa is here, and will have left some food and water with the leaders to be given to him once she's gone. Either way—]
Kano-san... I'm so, so sorry.
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Kano is in the lounge, lying on the ground with his feet propped up on the seat of the couch, getting back to that same familiar feeling of having all the blood pooled in his head. ]
Why? You tried really hard, you know? I was watching you.
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She shakes her head, sniffling. Sorry to say, it's pretty obvious she's been crying.]
Not hard enough. I thought you were innocent, but I didn't find anything to help you.
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There wasn't anything to find, anyways. You know, when people do bad things like this... they're not gonna leave a whole bunch of clues that fall neatly into place. There's not gonna be a clear path to who did it and how. This whole thing is stacked against you; it's unfair from the start.
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Isn't that 'cause they like you? People will bend the rules for those they like— and it's not a bad thing, either. You should protect the people you like.
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But that's— We oughtn't make exceptions! And there are people who like you, and want to protect you as well, so why...? [Protect all the teens equally, wtf!!] You deserved to have the rules bent in your favor, too.
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[ He gets it, though, the unfairness of it all. If he were just a normal kid, polite and unassuming, if he didn't have to do everything that he did, how things could have been...
But the fact is, he is who he is, and he did what he did. ]
The rules never bend in my favor. Not once has luck been on my side, nor has fortune been kind. So this happening doesn't surprise me either. That's just how the world is: cruel and unfair. Kinda makes you mad, huh? All you can do is kick and fight at every turn, and live on in spite of it all.
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... It's just... If one exception is to be made, shouldn't the same standards be applied across the board? I understand the position of those who thought your behavior was suspicious, but...
[His hair wasn't even? Long enough? God. She makes a small noise, finally moving to plop down on the floor near the barrier.]
... It shouldn't be that way. Cruel or unfair. I'm sorry, Kano-san. I left food for you with the leaders, but is there anything I may do for you tonight?
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...In my room, if you can get Claude to let you in. There's this doll in one of the pods, with a red scarf. Can you give that to Alex?
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I'll speak to Claude-san. I don't think he would refuse... Or, at least, I'm sure he would be willing to deliver it to Benedetto-san himself if we won't allow me inside.
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May I ask why?
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[ No. ]
He would probably read into it more than he should... probably... Anyways, you asked if you could do something for me, right? I don't want to impose on him.
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[Whatever horrible thing tomorrow will bring.]
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[ This would have made things so much easier today? Knowing he's like this, and giving him a pass. Even if the situation is what it is, knowing that nobody can be given passes or the culprit will slip through their fingers. ]
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If it's that doll, it must be of someone important to you... right? I can understand that as well.
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Yeah, she was the most important person to me. So I don't want to just leave it lying around.
[ Alex would take care of it, he thinks, even if she won't understand it, because Kano explains shit to anybody. ]
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I'll do everything I can, Kano-san. I know Benedetto-san will take great care of it until you're able to do so yourself again.
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What, do you think she's going to burn the doll to get it to me? I'm not coming back. This time, it's only me, so... You won't see me again after tomorrow.
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...It's a nice sentiment, and I hope it works out. But I wouldn't rely so heavily on wishes, if I were you.
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[A pause, and she shifts a little.]
If it's alright, may I ask something before I leave to look for Claude-san?
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shifts a little, too. Being asked permission like this is enough to make anybody nervous. ]
What is it?
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Why did you behave that way when they started to question you?
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...I was scared, maybe. Anxious.
[ Stressed to high hell??? Sometimes anxiety gets the better of you and you just shut off your brain and you have an unfortunately compulsive liar autopilot. ]
Whether I told the truth or a lie, nobody would be able to tell the difference. In that case, what did it matter, when nobody believes in me anyways?
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She sucks in a breath, turning to look at him. Holy fuck. Relatable, but holy fuck.]
... Kano-san... [In a teeny voice. Absolutely horrified.] I am so, so sorry.
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He breathes a laugh, a shuddering breath. It'll be fine. His existence is that he's more of an enigma than a person— whatever happens tomorrow, nobody will have to feel bad that they killed him. They don't know who "he" is, after all, truth and lie mixed and muddied. Like this is fine. ]
It'll be fine. You just gotta pick yourself up and move on— hold your wish close and never forget about why you're fighting so hard. That all you can do, right, "Kasumi"?
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Not "Kasumi." Yoshizawa. Kasumi... was my sister. [Unfortunately. Literally none of this is okay, but she starts to move to stand up.] Um... I'll come back to visit you before tomorrow. After I deliver the doll to Benedetto-san. Okay?
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...sure. I won't be going anywhere.
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... Right. I'll see you later, Kano-san.
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[ When will the graveyard be able to affect the living so Kano can just murder half the people there ]